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Heart Love Oneness Humanity
Gratitude is appreciation of what is here, now.
June 1, 2017
The sound of the watefall depends on the source and the target it is falling on.
The drain's water trickling down through the small rocks is soothing.
The ocean's water falling on the big rocks or the sand is soothing.
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The reflection of the trees on the glass table top is inverted and virtual.
The reflection of light bulbs on the glass window is virtual and outside.
The reflection of body in the mirror is virtual and opposite in the mirror.
The key to get the real and accurate picture is to use a second glass/mirror.
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All my life I seeked compliments and recognition from other people.
Most of my life, I got the uplifting respect and pride from other people.
Some of my life, I got the criticism and complaints from other people.
I was the same, but the person's opinion about me changed my experience.
Can I change my opinion about others?
No.
Can I change the opinion of other people about me?
No.
Can I respect myself, just the way I am?
Yes.
Can I respect people just the way they are?
Yes.
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May 30, 2017
On becoming aware of the silver twinkling stars across the jet black sky.
May 24, 2017
On becoming aware that I have mixed feelings of excitement and anxiety, when heading for a 5 day silent retreat.
May 19, 2017
On becoming aware that my childhood memories with my friends resurfaced, in the park.
Just by watching 2 Indian young ladies playing badminton for fun with intimate talking,
And, automatically I desired to play badminton for fun with someone, like my old days.
When we played for fun, without feeling judged or judging another as a bad player.
May 18, 2017
On becoming aware of 3 attitudes which weigh on me- fear in future based on past, buying on spree and complain about people.
And, returning stuff I am not using but bought recently, stepping aside old fears to be open to sharing the yurt at retreat, letting go of praise and blame.
May 17, 2017
On finding courage to write to the director (who is my supervisor for upcoming meditation class) about allowing me to give a trial for hearing my voice through the mic; overcoming my fear of rejection.
And, then hearing a yes from her.
May 15, 2017
On becoming aware that its OK to take rest and lay down a bit after an hour long Qi Gong class if the body asks for it.
May 14, 2017
On becoming aware that I had wished yesterday to get a Red Rose with thick stem and petals for Mother's day.
And, I got it from the restaurant we went for lunch with family.
Desires get fulfilled with just a thought.:)
May 11, 2017
On becoming aware that I felt the bliss on sharing in the group about the opportunity to lead MBSR practice in Hindi and English at the YMCA.
May 9, 2017
On becoming aware that the full moon looked so pretty in the night sky.
May 8, 2017
On becoming aware that I am blessed to have a clean shower and a clean sink at home; after visiting the camping grounds shower and sink.
May 6, 2017
On becoming aware that feeding rabbits in the neighborhood, the fresh shavings of the vegetables with my own hand felt really nice.
They were equally enthusiastic to eat as I was to feed them.
May 5, 2017
On becoming aware that each moment is like making an Indian Roti directly on fire.
It needs 100% attention to swell it up like a ball just burnt in the right places.
May 4, 2017
On becoming aware that when emailing people, I have no control over when they will respond.
And I need to let go of my anxiety about not hearing from them; howsoever critical it is.
It doesn't mean they are inefficient, don't care for me or have forgotten about it.
It simply is a lesson to come back to the practice of living in this moment.
May 3, 2017
On becoming aware that I keep talking in my head to the friends about my great lunch prep and eating.
May 2, 2017
On observing the beautiful colors-red, white and green in the cut watermelon.
May 1, 2017
On becoming aware that mind operates based on the past.
But the wisdom demonstrates, that no 2 events can be same.
If mind thinks of a delicious meal, it desires to cook it.
If mind remembers an uneasy experience, it tries to avoid it.
All based on the data stored in its memory from the past.
Even though the change in space or time inhibits recreation.
April 27, 2017
On becoming aware that talking to my father over the phone about everything, without hiding or manupalating felt nice.
On taking a walk with all the senses and presence with a mind of a child in Cuesta park.
And observing the butterfly fluttering and the pollen flowing.
Plus, enjoying the ride on a swing, walking on wooden 6"steps and lying directly on the grass.
April 26, 2017
On becoming aware how much my mind revolves around converstaions, seeking support and doing things together with others.
April 21- 25, 2017
Offering chocolates and oranges to the kids,strangers and the homeless. ($5 in kind)
April 23, 2017
On speaking up in the moment, about the difficulty in the difficult conversation.
April 21, 2017
On becoming aware of:
the birds chirping,
the sound of the Lightrail,
construction and landscapers
and that it is actually hepling me
in tuning out of my mind's chat room.
April 20, 2017
On observing the sprinkler water droplets sitting on the bent leaf.
April 13, 2017
On becoming aware while having breakfast that the walnuts I am eating are actually in the shape of butterfly.
April 12, 2017
On being with my fears about dogs.
Based on dogs biting my family members and friends in India.
And continuing to do yoga around a herd of dogs in the park (some were without leash).
April 10, 2017
On being angry and therefore not cooperating with my husband, without expressing it with losing temper.
Responding instead of reacting.
April 7, 2017
On being an interpreter at the YMCA, between a senior Indian visitor lady( who could not speak English) and the teacher.
April 1, 2017
On becoming aware of the heart opening feeling on wacthing white birds against the blue sky, while doing Qi-Gong.
March 31, 2017
On watching the silvery crescent moon in the darkness of the night.
On feeling the urge to share this realization:
Just like me, everyone is a human being.
Just like me, everyone wishes to be loved.
Just like me, everyone longs to be respected.
Just like me, everyone is a human being.
Just like me, everyone cherishes to be understood.
Just like me, everyone craves for deeper connections.
Just like me, everyone is a human being.
Just like me, everyone aches in painful interactions.
Just like me, everyone dislikes the stress in their lives.
Just like me, everyone is a human being.
Just like me, everyone has fears.
Just like me, everyone experiences anger.
Just like me, everyone is a human being.
Just like me, everyone has a darker side.
Just like me, everyone has shame stories.
Just like me, everyone is a human being.
Just like me, everyone is whole.
Just like me, everyone is unique.
Just like me, everyone is a human being........
March 28, 2017
On observing the monarch butterfly cross my windshield at Red Light, when my mind was wrapped in thoughts.
March 27, 2017
On enjoying the "lychee icecream" spoon by spoon at a restaurant.
On becoming aware that I was judging my children while shopping with them.
One child for pushing and rushing me against the time and the other for remaining calm, as we shopped.
March 24, 2017
On swinging out of the garage after parking the car to enjoy the rain drops on my face.
March 22, 2017
On becoming aware that core of relaxation lies in calming the breath in all walks of healing.
March 20, 2017
On noticing self talk in my head with my son, when I am downstairs in the kitchen and he is upstairs in his room.
And, when I am away in Qi gong class at the YMCA and he is at home on his spring break.
March 18, 2017
On feeling very happy and relieved on receiving a rejection letter from an interview.
During and after the interview my body was signalling the physical pain implying "No", and the mind was pulling me to "yes".
March 13, 2017
On becoming aware when my thoughts are pulling me into the future and
when they get trapped into good and bad and "you should" when dealing with my 13 year old son.
March 12, 2017
On living in the moment, the entire day and pulling thoughts back to the moment with awareness,
when it got into future conversations in the head.
March 9, 2017
On feeling nice about serving an elderly lady in the park as she silently followed qi gong movements I was doing.
March 9, 2017
On becoming aware that financial insecurity is so dominant in the mind, even if I have some reserve.
My financial insecurity is like the financial insecurity of all human beings.
All it takes to be at ease is to see "what I have", and tell myself I am fine financially.
All it takes to worry is to see "what I don't have", and begin talking to others in my head about financial help or scholarship.
March 8, 2017
On becoming aware, how quickly my thinking mind feels helpless when e-filing tax papers was stuck.
Plus. it took me away from reading the information given in front on the screen and the guide website at ease.
Leading to a rush and calling for outside help, dialing an endless waiting toll free number.
March 6, 2017
On becoming aware that the reflection of the blue sky with white clouds
on the closed windows of the car driving in the adjacent lane looks so pretty.
March 5, 2017
On becoming aware that how one thought of chasing something in furture
can hack me into endless conversations in my head,
taking me away from the present.
March 3, 2017
On becoming aware of the default not-so-important thoughts and conversations going on in my head.
February 22, 2017
On becoming aware how I feel extrememly anxious when I get lost in reaching the destination in time and
how stressed I get about the query from my children, when I am getting late to pick them up from school.
February 17, 2017
On bringing awareness to the thoughts, how they get scattered into a loop right after an external conversation.
February 15, 2017
On bringing awareness to the amount of thought lashing I did unto myself in the last two days.
1. For an error in mental multiplication,
2. For getting today's date wrong, and
3. For hitting the back of my car with the wood planks jutting out of a van while reversing the car.
On becoming aware of the attachments to having been pregnant and nursed my two children, one out of the baby's routine and
the other for my should from the first experience. This included waking up of the youger one from deep sleep in the night
to nurse every three hours; just because I should. Becoming aware that just like this, so many of my thoughts and actions
are out of my own "shoulds" and not that it was the need of another.
On becoming aware of the resistance my mind and words offer automatically to the actions/choices of people in my life.
On becoming aware much after getting lost in head talk.
On sharing gratitude with the neighbor on finding their lost toddler.
On becoming aware of the pretty colors of the sky at sunset (from pink above blending with the pale blue below),
as seen from the window of the home right after meditation.
On noticing the rainbow from the freeway.
On feeling the soft smoosh stepping on the green grass full of rain water.
On noticing how my mind hijacks me constantly into future conversations with people.
On feeling the hot water on my hands while handwashing clothes.
On watching the shiny-golden road during the walk. The bright Sun rays were reflecting off the drenched road.
On watching the raindrops running away on the road, with the strong wind.
On enjoying my morning walk in the winter rain, feeling the droplets on the face.
Simply by wearing warm layers under the raincoat.
On observing the circular droplets of rain in a puddle. And their beautiful colors, from the reflection of street light above.
On watching the crescent moon in the darkness of the night.
On watching the bright red colored water bleeding from a shirt in a tub.
On admiring the colorful christmas lights and listening to christmas carols while driving the car.
On admiring the orange sky at dusk, after being indoors (shopping) for 2 hours.
For being ok to eat alone, to practice mindful eating.
The yellow leaves dropped from the tree on the green grass below.
On watching the gray clouds sitting on top of the green hills.
On watching the yellow leaves leaving the tree, while driving car on the freeway.
On watching the clouds sitting in the blue sky.
On seeing the colors in the sky at sunset.
Thankful for remembering the contentment in nursing my infants, while feeding rabbits the carrot leaves.
The joy in feeding what the person being fed needs and likes.
Greatful for realizing my biggest mouth hunger is for salty and crunchy food, followed by crunchy food and then comes the sweet and soft in the list.
Thankful to google for supporting our non profit and allowing more user emails and waiving off the monthly fee.
Feeling gratitude for living, being alive, feeling the warmth of the sunshine and watching the clouds sitting on the mountains;
when I was so close to being declared to have colon cancer as a result of colonscopy.
The fear of rejection keeps me from communicating what is going on inside me.
But, taking a step acknowledging my fears and communicating is the step I am choosing to take, and it feels "Ahhhh"..
I thought I had a sweet tooth, but I noticed I actually really like the salt taste too and miss it while eating sweets or fruits.
On realizing "change is constant" (in Nature),
but a part of me wished (against Nature) that my relationship with my dear people to be the same always.
Today, I could laugh about my wish.
On seeing the colorful fall leaves of maple trees.
For breathing the fresh air and great sunny weather.
On walking through the dry leaves on the pavement and enjoying the rustling noise.
On wearing the costume of queen on Halloween, just for myself.
On giving away a box full of tempting Indian sweets, offered by a neighbor to the lawn mower.
On recognizing, when I wish others to go for a walk with me; it is only me who wishes to move my body and do it (not everyone).
On noticing how much mental-self-hurt I give myself, by judging myself around others and sometimes even alone.
On not complaining about the continuous rain, even if I need to step out of home.
On sitting down to watch movie with family for about 2 hours, even though my left abdomen was hurting for a nature's call.
Eating food that I like for dinner, overcoming fears of sleepless nights or indigestion.
On noticing the crescent growing into half moon over nights.
For being in a calm state of mind.
On feeling the breeze through my hair, while driving the car.
On observing the white cloud in the sky which looked pure and innocent.
For speaking honestly and straight forwardly about my secret dance class to a friend.
On noticing my conversations in my head with the people long after I am done emailing or talking to them.
For noticing after a good movement exercise that it is my my mind which keeps on hooking onto whatever, the five senses
get attracted. Be it a visually, sensually or audibly.
For expressing anger to the person I was angry with; instead of pretending all is well with me.
For being able to eat a breakfast which makes me full in belly, content with taste and is healthy to the judging mind.
On noticing what is missing in this moment, that is making me uncomfortable and therefore wishing it to be over.
Then to take actions to make myself comfortable in body and mind. Finally, relax in this very moment and not later.
On wearing my art clothes, to the YMCA class.
On being alone the whole day at home on a weekend and doing something creative, instead of complaining about it.
On watching the "fall" yellow leaves flowing down from trees across the freeway.
For enjoying the lunch with different textures and tastes.
Plus stopping when full, even it was my biggest craving.
For expressing gratitude for physical health, namely hands, legs, nose, touch and taste.
For finding my purse with phone and wallet inside it intact, after forgetting it at a restaurant where I had lunch.
For eating lunch bite at a time and one sip of buttermilk at a time and stopping when I got the first sign of just before the burp.
Feeling gratitude during meditation, for having a choice to pick between raw fruits or veggies for lunch.
Feeling gratitude for my daughter picking up my son from school.
On feeling the breeze through my hair (during the morning walk outside).
On feeling that the biggest pain for me is from two sources.
The first one, when the other person does not accept (and/or appreciate) the way I wish to express my love towards him/her.
The second being, when the other person does not love me the way I would like him/her to speak / (do actions) to/(for) me.
In either case, I am the one left feeling hurt, which results in shutting my heart; when I truly wish to be love; by sharing love.
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