Heart Love Oneness Humanity
December 5, 2014
I saw a 2 yr old baby boy, fast asleep on his belly. warm under a blanket. His teachers and friends were shouting. Yet, there he was asleep, still, carefree and calmly. I got a glimpse of a free soul, free of all fears, including judgments. I felt like cradling him in my arms gently, without waking him up. I wish to hold babies in my arms and rock them to sleep, and may be even talk to them, to hug them and perhaps paint our colorful dreams together. I wish to sleep peacefully (at least once), before I leave; forever.
December 4, 2014
I was fearful of facing our community manager. But when I decided to reveal out my fears of loosing his "respect" from him; I was astonished. Our interaction became even more warm and cordial.
December 1, 2014
While drawing, coloring and making a calendar (for this month), I was so engrossed that I did not realize my hunger or any worry. Wow, actually "doing what captivates took me away momentarily (extending over an hour) from worry/ anxiety/ fears which need medications."
November 29, 2014
I am learning not to talk much (outside with mouth) and much more (inside the mind); alone or among people.
November 25, 2014
I noticed a route, which my thoughts had created in college days (growing up in Delhi). Whenever I will go to CP (Connaught Place), from college or home; I will eat at one of the restaurants. Whether, I would go to meet my married sister at her work, or with friends/cousin; my expectation was the same.
November 23, 2014
Whether its dictating my hyphenated-extra-long-last names (7+11 characters) while filling out a form at the counter, or the simple-dinner (cous-cous with beat, corn and edammome), I cook & carry to the parties, and the answer (to the consistent question) "What are you doing these days?" Mostly, I answer with feeling of hesitation-about-last-names, of yuckiness-and justifications-about-simple-dinner and of something-less-for-not-earning-money. But, whatever the question/situation be, I can choose to respect my self/words.
November 21, 2014
The nature is perfect and so is the symmetry in each leaf. And to top it all the color of the leaves from lush-green, through baby-pink to bright-yellow; all in one tree.
God help surrender, whenever, I doubt significance-precision-and-symmetry in all Thy creations.
November 20, 2014
I was amazed at the falling of dry leaves, swaying down gracefully towards the grass.
God help surrender, all that keeps me from being present in the moment.
November 19, 2014
I observed getting authoritative comments from 3 people in a day. I did not like it, but it did not let me down.
God help surrender, all my interactions without feeling happy for good and crying for bad.
November 18, 2014
I noticed, I was talking to peers in MBSR, even when I was at home alone. There is a "I", the ego, which constantly wishes to preach and seek attention.
God help surrender my "I", which is constantly trying to seek attention and "I" am wiser than others.
November 16, 2014
While dancing at home, I was way ahead in Bihu dancing with a childhood friend, me talking it to her about it etc.etc....I was everywhere else, than right where I was. I was remembering childhood dances in EOK, and a thought to recreate those moments..
God help surrender my attachment to past memorable moments and future recreation of past.
November 15, 2104
My happiness or peace of my mind cannot be dependent on what my husband, kids or I should or should not do.
God help surrender my should(s) and should not(s) for myself or for other.
November 14, 2014
I am wearing an eye cover and am guessing what am I touching? I guessed it to be a rope, when it was actually an elephants'tail.
My vision is limited (even w/o an eye cover) and that limited vision is completely distorted (with an eye cover).
God help Surrender my eye cover.
God help expand the periphery of the vision.
November 13, 2014
My heart and smiles get shut down in critical, judgmental environment of people.
God help protect my open heart and smiles.